Healing and getting to know myself – starting at the Root.

I can pinpoint exactly when my life shifted into a better gear: it was the morning immediately after I attended the journaling and meditation workshop I mentioned HERE. I woke up early and the first thing I did was reach for a recently gifted journal to write.

For the first time in my life, I wasn’t just recording events or ranting – I was diving into something much deeper. I didn’t know it right then and can’t realize the full extent of it now, but I can see and feel the rippling effects of it. Journaling has helped me begin the process of getting to know myself.

I also purchased a beginner’s book called “The Ultimate Guide to Chakras” by Athena Perrakis, Ph. D. , as these were mentioned in the workshop and I was curious. I had been feeling emotionally off-balance for so long and didn’t want to go back to relying on pharmaceuticals to reconnect. The book starts with the Earth Star Chakra and moves upward; the second Chakra being the Root Chakra. This is where the book began making sense to me – when I read the symptoms of an unbalanced Root, I related to them. Using my own words, I was ‘spinning in circles’ with just about everything, unsettled in my relationships with others, wildly swinging between joy and despair, and frustrated with feelings of lack of progress, no matter how hard I tried.

While I’ve since moved on with my learning of the Chakras, I wanted to celebrate the progress I am making in getting to know myself, plugging back in to my life, and finding the ground. I wanted to revisit the Root Chakra with my latest series of candles for the Grounded Goddess in Schenectady.

Browns to represent the earth, with flashes of vibrant red for strength. The candles are scented with clove, which is said to be protective, an attraction of what you seek, and helps to connect with feelings of love and safety from childhood (says Athena Perrakis, Ph.D, in The Ultimate Guide to Chakras, pg. 51). Lastly, these candles will be topped with tumbled red jasper pieces.

I can’t express how much better I’ve been feeling since that day where I picked up my journal and began. I look forward to writing – to finding a deeper understanding of myself which, in turn, has helped me give others a bit more grace. I feel like I’m making progress, while realizing the journey is on-going.

“Are you a celebrity or something?” Thoughts about champagne and celebrating the small things.

Earlier this year I ran into a co-worker at a liquor store on a Friday evening. Besides “hello”, the first thing he said to me was “Are you a celebrity or something?”, as he noticed I was leaving with a bottle of champagne. I responded that I was celebrating the fact that it was Friday.

I’ve gotten big into celebrating the small things. Made it to the end of the week? High five! Got dressed and left the house? High five! Didn’t have a total meltdown? High five! Took care of yourself? High five! It’s Friday? Go get yourself a bottle of champagne and enjoy it! This is how I’ve made it through the past year; simply trying to keep a focus on the little victories instead of setbacks or what may be looming in the corridors.

I can’t say what prompted me to consciously start doing this except for my dogged survival instincts. Either way, I do credit it for keeping me sane and optimistic [most of the time – I’m human].

As it turns out, my idea isn’t radical, crazy, or even lacking scientific basis. Just yesterday, I discovered an episode of my favorite podcast discussing a very similar concept – specifically, what happens to your mindset and self-confidence if you high five yourself in the mirror daily for 5 days. You HAVE to listen to this – it’s amazing!

I continue to allow myself to roll around in good things, whether it be as simple as waking up and feeling joyous, taking a step forward and achieving something, or just being. There doesn’t need to always be a reason. I believe in its mind-set transformation.

When I received a request from The Grounded Goddess (Jay Street, Schenectady) for more candles – I was already feeling pulled in the direction of transformation, discovery, and hope. This was the day before I found that podcast episode so I felt like it was absolutely the right message I wanted to share.

I forged a relationship with the owner of The Grounded Goddess when I attended a journaling and meditation workshop there. Shortly after, she purchased a couple of candles from my website and, when I delivered them, I approached her with an idea of my creating a spiritual line of candles for her shop. So, I celebrated not only her purchase from my website, but her acceptance of my offer, my eagerness to expand my horizons and learn more about Chakras, crystals, stones, and myself, and being able to provide 8 candles to start that I was proud of.

I celebrated the sale of the first candle from the shop, and, last night, the sale of the final candle…all as the 7 new candle casts cured. I’m celebrating the new 7 candles today*, which I’ll drop off early this evening, the fact that I took a chance and it’s panning out, that I’m making the time to write this blog post after a few months of silence! I’ll be celebrating inside ~ lettin’ the good vibes flow ~ and will be celebrating outwardly with a yoga class.

*Featured in the photo above are 3 out of the 7 candles I’ve made in the past two days in their first drying stage. I chose to vary the designs of “transform” to be tree-like, simple and minimal. This is because transformation doesn’t always have to be big and noticed by the world. Transformation can be small, a secret. It can be understated and it can be loud. Everyone is different. These candles are all lavender scented and feature crushed amethyst stones across the top ~ calling to your Crown Chakra.